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Fact #1: the history kept in the notebook , the happiness can't ever be replaced

2012-02-02T20:38:00.018+08:00

mahathir (madey) & walid

animators lecturer

Dear Animators ,

God knew how much I been kept my sadness and joys without them standin' by my side .

It seem after graduated from animation in two years nitec , we been separated .

I been misses the canteen foods , classes , hall , field and even the toilet that we used to bath together after sw lesson .

Currently , been busy workin' steven madden at Ion Orchard and just had interview at Singapore Polytechnic . It seem Nanyang Polytechnic had difficult test than SP , the lecturers friendly yet strict too .

To the reader's ,

sorry for keep you guys waitin' "when will she keep updating with her dead blog ?!"

please do pass by at steve madden ya , I'll will be welcome you with a bright smile dearest costumers

steve madden heels and wedges have 10% to 30% discount , worth it right ?!

Just got my pay and I keep my soul to it , been control myself not to open my bank card .

I guess I should save all my cash by now , polytechnic use more money eventhough its needed or wanted .

Pray and Hope

I get what I wanted doesn't care much which polytechnic as long I'm in means I'm save right ?

I shall go some shopping soon , been a long time . Need to buy branded school bag , shoe , tops and some bottoms before open school on april .

I'm lookin' forward graduation day on the 24th Feb & photographers outing on the 8th Feb with animator girls .

In the chestnut ,

life always been great although with ups & downs .

After the heartbroken , I started to stand up and be appreciated what I had .

Maybe , we don't meant to be together but let you know

you will always be someone that can't replaced .

I'm single but not available get it ? :B

Wedding Of The Month

2011-12-02T17:57:00.003+08:00

red & hot pink made impact

" sexy beat colours "

celebrated aunties & mum birthday

they say we look alike , she's my gorgeous aunt

we be your rock and roll !

unavailable beauty

16th October

May God Bless You My Gorgeous Aunties & Uncles

The wedding when smoothly yet I'm the happiest girl been long never meet them .

My blogger dead , when the last time I update ?

Boohoo !

let's the pictures be the talk

Stay tuned & takecare dearest readers

sincerely ,

xoxo

I'm just obsessed to you-mr. pluto

2011-10-01T16:26:00.017+08:00

There's Will Always Be You Tonight. Tomorrow & Forever.

" I should say that even thought I didn't managed to pampering myself, but

I'm glad because I had my sexy man that always pampered me. He treat me above than babies.

He always be there for me. He seem to know my worst and the best, he accept the way I'am. "

every second that appeared I knew you wrote my name across your heart with your soul

- It Just For You Mr. Mamat

I'm huge addicted to X-Factor maybe because of my dad, he always ask me to switch channel 5.

I wanted to watch Bee Movie later around 7plus I guess.

I need to note down that on 6 october is mum birthday & I crazy madly wanted to watch Mama Mia.

Dear Allah,

Give me the strength please because I didn't want to stop my journey halfway.

I still wanted to continue my studies further and hopefully I'm promote to the next level.

I wanted you to know, we can be lovin' partner or even friendship

that last long together but at the same point I wanted you to success further as you can achieve

even if we can't be the best at least we can be the better.

We shall start all over again, from the bottom to the next level we struggling and

achieve to be someone better.

Hmm.

I haven thought what should I buy for my mum.

So any suggestion readers ?.

T O O D L E S R E A D E R ' S

With love,

amelyna capparispinosa

^^ ,

mr pluto, he's closer than the best.

2011-10-01T15:23:00.005+08:00

Starbucks & Coffee Bean

Sunset. Green Tea. Sketches. Hugging. Kisses. Happiness. Candle-light dinner.

It been like two weeks of holiday and it seem I never get a chance to update my blog.

I been busy with schooling although it's holiday , the major is to complete my final year project.

My presentation on November and it seem time spinnin' so fast , I guess it left than a month.

Maybe you guys will wonder why I upload the Starbucks Manu drink, it because of mr pluto.

He been drinkin' and inlove with Starbucks and Coffee Bean.

He taught me how to keep myself cool down during the hot weather.

After like god knew how many days I'm been working so hard in school for preparation finally

I do spending my time constantly with mr pluto.

He's been patient and keep accompany me around the world.

This little pumpkin even search through my iphone how to go to Bras Basah just to

accompany me brought my art stuffs.

I even taught him, " this is what it called art students " with painting , brushing , sketches and pens.

We went to art friend and comics street , he then knew what's animation is all about.

After that, he spending this all time favorite drinking double chocolate

Coffee Bean while I get some cookies.

After like how many hours keep sketches for sick god knew,

" I'm felt like artist because people keep starin' and taken photos "

We started to " Give A Try " on Green Tea at Starbuck nearby, walking the streets with happiness

like couple on the day.

The best part was when the romantic candle-light dinner appeared.

He's been pamperin' me with fashion shops , try his best to kidnap my heart.

He taught me the style and fashion just to look better , we do exchange our topics & thoughts.

Although at the first place , I didn't know should it a must to have self-proclaim ?

he told me why you should have have self-proclaim , because you're doing your best only when you are trying to improve what you are doing.

Therefore , I shouldn't have a self-proclaim and I shouldn't keep on learning to success further.

" I love you because you the best I never had "

Goody Toodles & Takecare always readers, see you when I see you.

xoxo.

amelyna o.

Aidilfitri Anugerah #2

2011-09-16T16:58:00.015+08:00

After the first day of raya, we went to Malacca

relative open house and we do slept over for three days without internet connection

and all stuff, but at least we didn't felt bored at all.

1. played fireworks

2. feed the chickens and chicks

3. talking with the elders with difference of topics

4. adventure and discover the kampung foods

5. cook and learnt baking cakes cookies

6. played with kiddo and babies

7. bring macbook along to complete after effects assignment

8. karaoke, movie and relaxing

9. shopping

10. eating ice cream baskin' robbins

In the chestnut, life been always wonderful and stress.

final year project presentation on the november, not yet animate

the both classes that graduate soon been worry

holiday two weeks start on monday but still need to come back for school

such a busy bug right ?!

Group: animate 3 mins/ more, final poster A3/ A2, final website adobe flash,

final storyboard color/clean in adobe photoshop, bible book, CD/ DVD covers

Individual: 4 sketch books, 20 pieces printed portfolio (hard copy)

example like 3D models, 2D short animation, digital painting and drawing

demoreel/ showreel (2 soft copy)

GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST TO PARALLAX PRODUCTION

Life wasn't easy as you can see, it takes million path to success

make the right choice and decision, challenging,ideas and creativity

MY PUMPKIN / ABANG BODY / MR CHARMING / SEXY LOVE / MALISSALEH SOLEH2

GOD KNEW HOW MUCH I REALLY MISS YOU, HOPE YOU COMING MY OPEN HOUSE ON THE SUNDAY <3

xoxo

with loads of kisses

AMEL CASSANDRA MARIELLA

#givenbymysexlove

For Mr Sex Love In October

2011-08-21T18:54:00.004+08:00

For M. in October

If we could come together like two parts of one love song

Two chords going hand in hand

A perfect arrangement and be two parts of the same secret

( oh if we could recover and tell again, our midsummer secret )

If you and I could even start again as strangers

Here in this forsaken field

Where crickets rise up

Around my feet like spray

Out of a green ocean

but I am alone,

Alone walking up and down

Learning on the silly wind

And talking out loud like a madman

"If only you and I were possible."

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz, or the arrow of carnation the fire shoots off.

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul. - amelyna o.

God knew, maybe he the right person for me.

2011-08-18T17:45:00.000+08:00

He's personality can't make him perfect but make him the best

Most of the qualities that make him adorable and muscular aren't visible.

He's adorable for what's on the inside. He don't have a perfect shape or figure like others.

He don't have the face of a movie star or neither superhero. Actually, he have the face of a thirteen year old boy, pimples and all. But when he trying to make himself look physically handsome and adorable,

he use his personality and that was who he is <3

He wasn't perfect but he trying his best to steal and capture very single part of my heart .

he may look weird

he may look nerd

he may look stupid without knowledge

but the best part he was always there for me

he give the encouragement and advise

sometime he do give his criticize to make it better but not worst

He's adorable smile / muscular body / eyelashes / thick lips / sharp nose

made me melts over and over again

He's one in the million <3

Dear sexy god,

Thanks for everything and I always appreciate every single moment spend with you

P.M: God knew like how many days we not meet and I'm still counting the days.

miss you much my sexy man .

*hugging & kisses*

I pull myself up before it's keep falling

2011-08-18T15:35:00.000+08:00

"As you always know thursday was the best day I ever had"

basically, thursday my lesson end at 11am and on friday end at 1pm

due of the final year project, showreel preparation and portfolio

I decided to stay back every friday until my mum always fetch me up at 7pm

I decided to think before it started or ended

I decided to be so call "such hard-working girl" before it getting worst with my gpa points

therefore with the encouragement by my sexy boy

I stay longer and stronger,

I believe everyone of us will make it to the final

maybe doesn't that success but I'm sure enough things will get better when you believe and confident yourself

I'm the most tired person than the rest of my classmate

I going through extra miles everyday while them had reached home

I should mention that during the fasting month, I get tired easily and I'm not eating the proper food

while my friends break fast with their friends and family

how about me ?

my mum and I break our fast inside the car, eating bread and a bottle of water

just to fill up the stomach while it was the hottest sweating day ever

as you can see stay in other countries may look easier but we felt how suffer it was

maybe it's true majority of singaporean stayed in johor bahru than singapore

look how money kept increased even with/without a sale

it is expensive and to get just one thing that we really wanted,

we as a student started to find a job after that quit school not because

we are lazy but some of us tired and didn't have the interest to study

I guess not each one of us didn't have the interest if they really love what they do,

life may be a success path

I haven mention yet about my new look, if you see my above pictures I do reborn my hair

and it fall on the national day.

I do used my own money and I have to say this johor bahru was the most cheaper

way to reborn, dye and treatments.

my abang jajit so called the "body builder man" always staring at me ever since

I reborn my hair,appeared from his mouth was you look gorgeous and I been melting most of the day <3

Happy Fasting To The Muslim

takecare & toodles

your bimboo girl,

amel capparispinosa

xoxo~

Boy, you be the first and the only last maybe the perfect guy?

2011-07-21T15:18:00.000+08:00

Love is a little blind. When we love someone dearly, we unconsciously overlook many thoughts.

Forgive others and yourself

Forgiveness is the oil of relationship, it is in the forgiveness of our mistakes that we are healed of them.

Don't do it for your parents. Don't do it for your boyfriend.

Don't do it for your best friend. Don't do it for your teachers. Do it for you.

Learn from your pain, growing is a lifetime job, and

we grow most when we're down in the valleys, where the fertilizer is.

We are one, after all, you and I, together we suffer, together exist, and forever will re-create each other.

I have spent too many years,

staring into the mirror on the wall,

which only magnifies the imperfection,

back to my smiling face.

I have spent too many days,

trying to be the pillar of optimism,

that keep up the facade,

even when everything's not okay.

I have spent too many nights,

covering up my tears and pain,

with an insecurity blanket made

of laughter and lies.

I have spent too many hours,

watching those carefree girls who

reflect the perfection of female beauty,

which I will never have.

I have spent too much time,

stepping up onto a scale,

only to measure my inability

to succeed at the smallest goals.

I have spent almost twenty years,

living in this world,

and just now I'm beginning to wonder,

if I have ever really lived at all.

your faithful,

amel camel.

xoxo

broken heart

since every failure is a lesson, every challenge an opportunity,

and every joy a triumph, it's hard to go wrong. - amelyna o.

hope you doing fine without me

2011-07-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

" Boy, maybe we were born to be separated way. When you giving up doesn't mean you was weak, it just mean you need to let it go "

I knew every single parent wanted his/her child to get a better future

I knew when something happen something went wrong

I knew after your son knew me, he started to change

became playful, don't want to study and his bill went high just because of me

I knew my fault, I'm wrong

I knew when he came back home late just because of me, he send and fetch me to school just to keep me save

just to show how much he really love and care about me

I knew myself your son actually have a better future without me but when I'm appeared

I'm the person destroy his life

until you decided to tell my mum everything and I always the one who became the victims

after what had happen, I guess I will leave your son alone

there's without chances for us to be together

I left doesn't mean I didn't care and love but it mean for your own good

Again to say, I'm sorry please accept my apology

Ku berjanji kepada dirimu, walaupun susah atau senang sekalipun untuk melupakan dirimu

ku relakan melepaskan dia pergi, kerana diriku boleh diganti dan dicari

tetapi untuk diri insan yang bernama ibu susah untuk digantikan dengan yang lain

mak siapa yang tidak marah kalau dia tidak suka dengan pasangan anaknya sendiri

dan mak siapa juga tidak suka kalau pasangan anaknya melalu batas sehingga bill naik

sehingga anak kesayanganya balik lewat malam semata-mata hantar kekasihnya

lebih baik di depankan diri daripada tersembunyi

jikalau inilah apa yang kamu minta ku akan turutkan dengan rela hatiku

selamat bersama dengan anak kesayangan mu, ku tahu aku yang selama ini buat salah

dengan perbuatan dan sikap yang susah dikawal

aku kuat merajuk dan kuat cemburu

selalunya aku yang bersalah dan sehingga pergadohan aku yang mulakan dulu

selama ini anak mu banyak berubah dan semuanya

kerana diriku dengan ini ku lepaskan dia pergi

pergi jauh dan mungkin tidak pernah kembali

dimana kau berada jagalah dirimu dengan baik dan ku doakan kau bahagia disamping orang lain

assalammualai'kum

salam cinta salam sayang,

ameelyna o.

toodles & takecare always

xoxo ~

He my prince in the kingdom, put the cherry on the top

2011-07-17T19:58:00.000+08:00

"After the argument that we had, I decided to smile in the sudden when he told me that he bought me a pair of shoe. He decided to make my heartbeat melted and he pampered me with his truly love"

I swear, I never heard before brand of ETNIES

and the color of shoe was grey and green

I hope it will turn out great and hopefully I love it

not about the color contrast that suit me the best and also about the qualities; soft, protective and last long

I should thanked to god cause I met him

I should thanked to him cause maybe without him, my life wasn't complete

hope god will bless both of us

amin

that should be me holding your hand

that should be me staring your eyes

that should be me buy for you gift

that should be me, that should be me

Abang. Jajit / Abang Sachok / Abang Handsome / Abang Hotstuff / Abang Body / Abang Macular

that's nothing I can say cause you the best gift by god

I miss every single of your smile and laughter

te'amo te'amo

16th July: Happy Birthday Shaun The Sheep!

My little brother Shaun Aikel and we celebrated his birthday at Angsana and night markets

with roasted chicken, black pepper, strawberry and mango yogurt, tropical fruit drink

my dad present my little brother IPhone and

not to forget my mum bought ear piece and water bottle of angry bird

my mum was a big fan of angry bird even her whole car

17th July: company my granny and mum went to supermarket bought

the groceries and two bottles of my yogurt drinks

I'm on diet cause I can feel my weight getting fatter, the whole one month holiday I been ate and slept

before when to Hong Kong felt so sexcited until I never slept like the whole day

and after went back from Hong Kong I slept the whole day without bathing .

smelly piglet rolling on the bed shit

toodles & takecare adorable readers

assalammualai'kum

sayang mesra,

ameelyna camellia

miss caramel caramello capparispinosa

xoxo ~

i confuse,i disappointed and i loose my hope

2011-07-16T23:39:00.000+08:00

" There's always a few step to let go, whether you change or I'm the one that change. Sometime you realize yourself, we began our relationship with happiest but end with the tears. When you can't make your partner happy you try your best but when you giving up easily that means you didn't love him/her and you confuse to learn "
I'm happy when you love my smile
I'm happy when you always by my side
I'm happy when you actually trying your best to make my day memorable
but beside all the happiest you gave to me, I realize that you hate when people keep forcing you. They not forcing you but they wanted you to try and don't ever giving up easily, you made me hopeless .
I became far apart from you even you trying your best to stay longer with me
I confuse myself
I confuse the decision I made
I didn't know what to do and in this moment, I decided to be alone
doesn't mean I didn't love you, doesn't mean I didn't care about you
I just wanted to be alone and I can't face the fact when we arguing
because I knew I can't control my anger and
at the point of time you can't control yourself too

setiap perjalanan dan keputusan ada ditangan kita, kita yang menentukanya
tetapi tak semestinya kita tak sedia dan upaya untuk selesaikan masalah sendiri
cintaku tak pernah dilarang oleh orang tua ku ataupun keluarga sendiri
namun kadang kala ku tak pernah merasakan cinta abadi
tapi kali ini amat bermakna kerana aku dapat merasakan cinta sejati dengan mu
ku gembira, ku suka, ku duka, tak disangka akhirnya makluk allah s.w.t
yang sempurnah amat erti bagi ku
tapi adakah aku sempurnah bagi dirimu?
adakah engkau mencintai dan menyanyangi sepenuh dihatimu?
adakah aku wanita impian mu?
nenek selalu berkata lelaki yang taat dan sejati adalah lelaki yang sempurnah
walaupun digodah oleh wanita-wanita yang lain dia tetap akan setia dengan satu
kerana setia dan kejujuranya la yang membuat allah sayang kepadanya
tak tahu sampai bila dia nak belajar sedaya upaya demi diriku
tak tahu juga adakah dia dapat bersabar dan pertahankan hubungan ini
aku tak sempurnah bagi mu, kerana ku tahu diriku
seandainya jikalau kau dapat baca dan mengerti isi hatiku ini
ku ingin kau tahu bertapa sedih dan pilunya hati ku berbisik
ku rela melepaskan segalanya pergi dan ku rela jika kau ingin pergi kerana ku tahu diriku ku tak sesuai bagimu
demi cinta ini ku bertahan
bersabar dan pasrah sepenuhnya kepada mu

Dia: Scha lawa sey you! *melt melt*
'__________________________'
rupa-rupanya dirimu tidak lihat yang mana permata dan kacah
walaupun dia artist walaupun dia tak dapat kau miliki tetapi kau tak rasa apa yang aku alami
setiap wanita ada sikap sendiri dan setiap wanita ada cemburunya
walaupun kau tak nampak tak merasai tapi bagi wanita benda kecil adalah besar
siapa yang tak merasa cemburu jikalau pasangan berbanding2 orang lain dengan dia sendiri
hati siapa yang tak sakit tak terluka
kekasihnya dihina2 tetapi orang lain dipuji2
jikalau kau tak terima aku seadanya bermakna kau tak terima pencipta allah
kau tak suka orang memaksa2 diri kau tetapi kau sendiri tak pernah nak mencuba
cuba sikit terus give up maknanya kau dah give up la dengan diri aku
kau biarkan diriku sendirian dan inikah namanya cinta kau terhadap diriku?
pandang la diri ku bukan luaran tetapi dalaman juga
artist pun manusia biasa ada kesilapan dan keburukan juga
artist cantik sebab ada duit, jangan la nilai cinta dengan duit nilai di hati dah cukup

ku berharap kau bahagia dan jagalah dirimu seperti mana ku menjaga mu

assalamualai'kum
salam sayang dan cinta,
amelyna capparispinosa
xoxo~

toodles & takecare readers
my blogger haven dead :D

Visual reflection

2011-06-18T19:39:00.000+08:00

Reflection Saturday .

after a hard work days on tuesday and wednesday

with my group members to finish up our final year project

I realize the day really spent amazing

we not slacking but we gave ideas to combine together

I awake at 4am and journey reached to singapore around 6.30am

while I reached to school one hour before 9am

thats the schedule that we made during the holiday to complete FYP

after the meeting Hong Kong members at CCK campus yesterday

I became sick and coughing past few days

nothing much I can say, but I'm the happiest girl ever after

The so called Sexy Man over here

can always made me laugh without stop giggling

he accompany me while I'm sick and coughing through the webcam

Been two days we talk creeps,we jokes,we smile and we created the nonsense

but I guess I created the most topic than him,

as you see girls can go through different topics at the same time

started A to the B and without realize it ended to the Z

girls talk really fast, with gossips without jumping

After I learnt how to get use on my macbook then I discover it's actually useful enough than laptops

I discover the pictures, music documents and the setting to set up

"When I realize that I can be in two faces like reflection above in retrospect, would it be amazing?"

imagine having your own twins to entertain when you lonely

it may looks the same but doesn't mean god created same heart

it may looks unique but god created heart to feel and appreciated

they say something loneliness was better than having twins/sibling because

sometime they won't understand you the most

the conflict and arguments can't be stick in the same shoes as sibling

all we wanted is to win and when some of us give the other partner to win all the time

we just felt unfair with life that we faced

"adik beradik boleh berkongsi kebahagiaan tetapi ia tidak boleh bersatu atau berbanding sesama lain"

sudah deh, saye nak sambung baca buku novel

Rindu Berbisik

"Penantian itu satu penyeksaan namun pertemuan itu belum tentu membahagiakan"

To Abang Body / Abang Sachok / Malissaleh / Mat. Jajit

you always made me melts with your adorable smile

and unbelievable each time when I close with you, your body made me felt touch amazing as it be

as you knew no one's replace you mr charming

misses you much

muchi muchi

xoxo

toodles toodles

don't close, i'm the monster girl

2011-06-08T15:02:00.000+08:00

"Crazy Mood Deactivated"

after my examination paper yesterday, I proud to say I had learnt

and definitely I knew every single answers and questions that they tested me

after I gotten C+ solid for the class test, I hope the exam paper will turn out excellent

GPA point please increase and treat me nicely

* realist and realistic *

In the sudden, I'm in the Bad Condition and Worst Mood

I don't know why people keep hating me?

why they act such as loser and cowards?

why they hate when they saw someone beautiful/adorable?

They wanted me to back off and get a life but why didn't them realize themselves?

Please Mirror Yourself Before You Wanted To Judge Others

I'm being so patient and thinking positive over here.

Don't being such a coward to see others mistake but doesn't see yours.

If I'm not an original girl,

I think I will be the most beautiful by wearing the plastic all over my face

my nose, my two pair of eyes, my lips, my skins everything are fake

then I will be the top of the book, where people keep staring and hate me the most

since you said I'm fake that means god is fake too, cause god created us.

I'm not fake because I appreciate my life everyday

Did you ever think that? Think before you talk?

How about you the one think first before you done anything.

You just love to ruling people life, don't you?

* breath in and breath out *

billion zillion sign

To Handsome Soul / Sexy Man / Adorable Sex as known as Abang Body,

Sometime we just need to face the ups and downs in our life

People started to think negative and we influences by their words

When we started to influences their mind, we have the intention of negative ways

Everything connected to our brain

But, I always wanted you to remember these no matter what happen I still adore you

although we far apart,we had the arguments and tolerances we still been strong

we still care and adore each every part

* nyet nyet *

part ni macam touching sikit

I can't wait for more event and outing before fly off to Hong Kong

Definitely I waiting to spend the whole day outing with Abang Macho

LOVE LOVE <3

yours imperfection girl,

~xoxo

TAKECAREYOURSELFALWAYS

I L O V E B A B Y T A Z

Crazy in love mode activated with delicious of him

2011-06-06T20:19:00.000+08:00

"Being strong doesn't mean you can throw anything to me,it means I decided to lead my life in my own imperfection ."

after the whole week of stress

the whole week of tired, daily in my life by in and out of the checkpoint

the whole week of the arguments, with final year project

double assignments

double studies for the examination that will be held tomorrow

double two faces of life, anger and happiness

everything that I look up I lead myself

I stand up by my own when I keep falling down

Nothing that's easy and nothing is hard, everything was an impact to me

I felt with the tears and I felt how amazing life was

when you actually sometime couldn't notice in front of your eyes

people keep laughing at you, people keep staring at you and sometime you didn't notice they even didn't sincere with you

all these while, there's nothing I could say cause everything wrote in god daily bookmark

I felt the pain and only god knew how I really go through with ups and downs

But finally I found someone that prefect in my eyes,

who always be there for me

who always support me whether it's good or bad

who always made me smile and laughter that unexpected

who always lend his shoulder when I'm in tears

who always knew the best and right decision for me

there's nothing I could describe more than a word

he really amazing the way he is

where you are and where you stand, you will always close to me

Dear God,

Thanks for created me and thanks for made me as a patient person

you was there when I'm lonely even when I'm in problems

you showed me the right path and realize me who I'am

make me someone that better and unique in their eyes, even I knew I'm not prefect

make me someone that success not only in my family eyes

but in the whole town,city and earth whereby they could proud with

Hopefully, my GPA point increasing and good luck to animation students

may god bless you guys always

To hotta'molly / Sexy man / Sex god / Sachok man /

Macho man or in a simpler word, Abang body,

Not a million fights , can ever stop me from being crazy over you .
I thank you for everything that you done for me,best moment i'd ever had.

our life is like wearing a mash on the party

2011-05-21T18:08:00.000+08:00

MAYBE OUR APPEARANCE MAY LOOK DIFFERENT BUT DOESN'T MEAN WE ARE DIFFERENT

WE STILL THE SAME HUMAN THAT MAKE MISTAKES

WEARING A MASH IS THE WAY TO EXPRESS YOUR EMOTION

first of all,

I should say that I update my latest post with my Macbook Pro

Thanks for the birthday presents that my mum and daddy bought for me

I'm may be a luckiest child

I'm may be a rude child that sometime make a mistake and doesn't own up

but behind the stupid things I made, I guess each one of us do made a mistake

we made and we learnt that's life

as a child, I do my best to prove to them and I do appreciated what I had

I made my own rules and I study so hard just to make them proud having me in their life

I respect their decision and I'm being honest

when I having a problem is the time to keep myself then telling my family or make them worry

cause I guess I have a confident to be alone and solving my problems

I don't need a second or third party to tell me what to do

cause I'm big enough to settle my problems by my own decision and way

I just need someone that support me even behind my back whenever I go through

I need someone to give the useful advices

I need someone to give the direction whether I'm in wrong or right

that's me

I don't even care if they hate me or love me

but if you guys really hate me at the first place why must you even view/read my blog?

please get your own life cowards

I'm being patient and I guess people testing my patient, it's too much don't you see?

we live our life just like wearing a mash

people hates us, people loves us but we as humans being patient

we entertain their life and we ignore when they hates us

we suffer sometime but they couldn't see, all they knew were hate as much as they wanted when they jealous of something that they couldn't get, they hate

when they saw us having our own happiness, they hate

when they saw our beauty,handsome and smarter than them, they hate

when they saw our family rich than them, they hate

we god creation and we just the same humans like you guys too hater

I'm pray or doesn't pray at all, there's anything different cowards ?

only god knew me the best and I guess if you hate me so much why not you get your own life

drop the topic there

Friday summer

mum and I send daddy to JB airport cause daddy having work oversea

unbelievable JB airport seem more huge than singapore airport

I can't wait to see malaysia airport at KL

Saturday smoothy

I learn how to cook nasi briyani with mum

I learn being a house wife wasn't easy as you see cause we take care our children

and the house while husband overseas and busying working everyday

In the nutshell and atmosphere,

life great, life awesome as can be

I'm preparing bags for camp before going to Hong Kong on the June

your little mermaid,

xoxo~

takecare always & toodles .

your world is mine world, nothing different

2011-05-07T18:44:00.000+08:00

time spinning like train without stopping

time run so fast that i can't catch up everything

time killing me dude, oh god please !

double assignments before i going to Hong Kong

and now it's like big trouble for me cause i don't have PowerPoint slides to submit my presentation

before going to Hong Kong

tell you what ! i'm really in a big trouble

i'm in stress and everything in my mind that i can't stop thinking

school. assignments. Maya 3D. Hong Kong.

Wow ! i know right so amazing

the whole June holiday i will be like other country, peoples county

studying and stress without a break

tell me how i'm not falling in love with my life ? should i exchange with someone ?

sign sign

only god knew the best for me :D

school begin awesome when you get to know more new friends

Maya 3D always appear on my head whenever i go through, easy or tough the way in life

we stress, we mad, we cry, we happy, we just need to go through in our life

cause that's the situation without it i guess people won't feel the difficult that we climb

we faced the fact and we solve it

we cry in tears but still solution trying to save it

life just amazing

i knew when the right time come, i guess liars will own up

i knew when our age getting older and wilder, people will change

i knew when we friend with nerds, people will stare at us but the fact is nerds are better in life

doing stupid things doesn't mean you cool

nerd friends doesn't mean our appearance change, it means that we wanted to be clever and smarter than the rest

i may look like nerd

i may look like childish

i may look like awful with my simple appearances

but one thing you can't judge about me, my brain and heart no one's can replace it

get it ?

i rock your world, and you rock mine

if you unhappy with me, say the truth and back off cause i doesn't care at all

say anything you wanted cause me human, god creation like yours.

your tweety bird,

xoxo

toodles and takecare

love you guys !

assalammualaikum

strangers,again

2011-04-24T20:55:00.000+08:00

In the relationship we actually have six stages

1: Meeting

2: The Chase

3: Honeymoon

4: Comfortable

5: Tolerance

6: Downhill

7: Break up

I realized how amazing when we together, but after day by day things getting change.

maybe me, maybe you and maybe we both.

we started our daily new path in our life

we started became a stranger like the first day we met

distance will grow, everything became memory

but one thing I realized that this strangers was most important person in my life.

our lives will continue on in different directions towards the inevitable end-becoming strangers again.

Bottom line: Is someone stop trying the feeling wasn't stronger before.

Whether is taking each other for granted or people changing over time.

without watching the video that Lydia Izzati post,

I guess I won't realized this far how treasure and amazing you actually in my life.

always remember I will keep you the box in my heart

whenever you are, do take care yourself.

your rainbow girl,

xoxo ~

a man falls in love through his eyes,a woman through her ears

2011-04-06T20:53:00.000+08:00

you should know the best for yourself

I'm just tired being in love

I'm just tired being ignored by you

I'm just tired giving you a lot of chances

I'm just tired being a jealousy girl

I'm just tired trying my best to get over it

I'm just tired forcing my brain to actually stop thinking about you

I'm sorry deleted you from my friendlist

Doesn't mean I hate you but it's mean I need time to think and settle the problems that we had

Trust me, after I done I'm sure will talk with you as usual

My brain just in a big mess and I hate to work it on

I'm sorry for made you stress and paranoid just because of me

Left four more days for school reopen and I still in holiday mood right now

I had a bad flu for the whole day and I kept sneezing

oh man ! thanks to god for gave me this nose '_'

I'm suffering with my nose and I guess I'm getting fever soon

* kesianye diri aku, malangnye *

ariel bayangko silso the poem and what I type was actually for you.

"I have learned not to worry about love, but to honor its coming with all my heart"

your sickness girl,

xoxo

"______________"

happy birthday to me, birthday girl

2011-04-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

time spinning so fast right ?

left one more week for school holiday then reopen school

the moody face appear cause a cute little pig like me should just stay at home

eating and sleeping

that's why getting more fatter each day

I really had fun with my girlfriends past three days

we skating madly and ya actually they not really well in ice-skating

thanked to me please cause I'm the one taught them

the presents that they gave was amazing

really I will wear it the next outing just for them

not to forget, left how many minutes before I getting older .

can't wait and I should countdown by myself soon dude

maybe the celebration like titanic ship that's what mum told me but swear I'm not sure at all

titanic ship was dead and I'm pretty sure it can't be alive back just for me

*nyet nyet*

hahahaha .

I should glad now cause at least my girlfriends still concern and care about me

not to forget someone keep accompany me every night just to chat and knowing me better

thanks dude,

thanks clone iwansyah and rezky aditya

thanks ariel bayangko silso

his real name you guys shouldn't know, only me and him ya

I'm the happiest angle now cause he keep falling towards me

he was just keep melting with my smile

your bimbo girl,

xoxo .

assalammualaikum

i want to be your the only one princess

2011-03-27T20:15:00.000+08:00

life is an opportunity, benefit for it

life is beauty, admire it

life is a dream, realize it

life is a challenge, meet it

life is a duty, complete it

life is a game, play it

life is a promise, fulfill it

life is sorrow, overcome it

life is a song, sing it

life is a struggle, accept it

life is a tragedy, confront it

life is an adventure, dare it

life is luck, make it

life is too precious, do not destroy it

life is life, fight for it

we sometimes get so busy that we may not make a fuss

about the ones we care for and who mean so much to us

BUT

you can be sure you're thought about and loved a whole lot too

because there could never be anyone more dear than you

countdown six more days for my birthday

Tomorrow Hong Kong trip meeting

Tuesday, Ice skating with girlfriends and I can't wait

* excited *

your strawberrieschocolate ,

xoxo~

baby, you are nothing to me

2011-03-25T20:09:00.000+08:00

"Baby after what you done to me, you are nothing"

I'm not a perfect girlfriend

I'm not a perfect wife

I'm not a perfect partner

I'm not a perfect god creation

but one thing you should know that I'm still learning

I'm learning to be better just for you

I'm learning my own mistake although sometime I can't see

I'm learning to be a good house wife although I can't cook

I'm learning to be the best cause you deserve it

after the pains that you gave it to me

I realize I'am nothing

you should deserve much better than everything

maybe I shouldn't alive in this huge earth

I should take back my words and give my breath to others

maybe I'm just useless

I'm disappointed seem myself on the mirror

Dear God,

please give me the happiness

please give me the patients

please forgive my mistakes that I had done

please give me the opportunity to breath so I can help others

countdown seven more days for my biggest day

Nike. Adidas. Puma. Prada.

2011-03-23T18:52:00.000+08:00

"Different people have different perspective, view, thoughts, wishes and hopes"

In the chestnut world, I wishes a pair of shoe on my birthday

I wishes a hug and special presents that I actually wanted for a long time

I wishes my beloved to remember this date on my big day

I wishes my family to give me a celebration and live happily ever after

I wishes something new in my life that will happen

everyone grow older and taller, no such thing as they grow younger each year

but when you look through their eyes and reflection all you see was younger

the way they wear and grooming themselves

I realize now a days guys are much more vain than girls

vain by the looks

vain by the appearances

vain by the way they grooming themselves

akmal craig told me this and when I wonder the sentences that he told me was true sometime

" Girls are like books, if the cover are not attractive I don't think so the guys wanted to read it"

but maybe sometime what I thought was true, now a days guys thought like that I mean most of them

but this question in the sudden appeared inside my head, " what's the point having attractive cover if their whole story inside are not meaningful at all ? "

I guess maybe most of the vain guys have the same thought like akmal craig

and he is one of them '_'

ha! can see by his thought and pictures inside facebook

"guys are vain is like beauty, cause they also wanted the vain girls"

but I can only tell this to all the girls out there,

you don't need the beauty appearances just to attract guys if your heart doesn't beauty enough

you don't need a nice weight/height like a model just to make the guys fall for you

what's the point of having heart that god created and you didn't use it

what's the point of having lungs and kidneys that god created if you didn't help or donate others

be intelligent and think about it

you don't need a billion of dollar just to waste and buy expensive clothes with make-ups to attract guys

all you need is be yourself

be just the way you really are

" we need vain to be clean appearances but not beauty"

last stalker, I aiming the hot pink and black shoes for my present

(the pictures above)

mama. daddy. granny. sabrina. aikel. uncle ee. abang kiev lee. kakak ayu. ayat ramos. farish. khairi akmal. zahed alex. matin fun-ghoul. hafiz shariff. ain ku greenish bamboo. winnie pooh. hazel nut. violet koh. ariel koh. aisyah bigbang. nurul afiqah. xiner. seri. hanis ku. timothy. audrey. and to the whole world that I know.

I want shoes badly !

kakak nak kasut baru !

adik nak kasut yang adik idam-idam tu !

aku nak kasut ni !

أريد بشدة أحذية

私は靴をひどくする

난 신발 싶어하지

Ich will Schuhe schlechtquiero los zapatos malIk wil schoenen slechtJe veux des chaussures malVoglio scarpe male
Azt akarom cipő rosszul
gusto ko sapatos na masama

toodles and take care readers ,

holiday for more than one week .

countdown nine more days for my biggest day

29th March- Ice skating and advance birthday celebration with girlfriends

7th/8th April- celebration with hanis, timothy and audrey (YOG Friends)

your goodgirl,

xoxo

bags.high heels.zara.peacock capture my eyes

2011-03-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

"give me twenty-two claps dude"

out of sudden, I been so talktive

I started to update my blogger a number of times per day

I had washed my laziness mood away

I started searching for the latest fashion from cotton-on, Zara & forever 21

I started to adore Adidas and Nike latest shoes

especially the rainbow ones

give me ten more claps please .

I been not updating my Facebook per whole day

oh man ! I started to miss someone,

I don't know I just miss cheating with him

miss the way how we disturbing each other

miss the way how we tell jokes and laughter

drop this topic

not to forget, to my dearest farish(far rise)

miss chatting the night late with you dude

khairi akmal

my Akmal Craig you will become the next George Craig dude,

Emma Watson just waiting you in the corner hello kitty kitten

he used to called me Amalina Watson. wth !

hahaha.

miss chatting with this two adorable guys ^^.

my lesson tomorrow at 1pm

Good Night & Sweet Dreams everyone

assalamualaikum

your weirdo girl,

xoxo ~

she is a diva and feminine

2011-03-13T17:14:00.000+08:00

"cintaku bukan di atas kertas, cintaku ketaran yang sama"

she's are someone special

she's capture my beautiful eyes

she's are someone that feminine

she's are the only one Malay diva

she's always be herself, the way she sang was originality from her mouth

she's are someone that beauty not by the appearances but the bottom of her heart

she's are popular by her own voices and personality

no one's can ever replace her beauty

no one's are gorgeous than her

it's hard to find someone that never wear sexy clothes for almost more than ten years

maybe the rest of her life and at the same time, I wanted to congrats at Datuk K

for having her as his wife .

almost more than ten years as a singer, this feminine lady over here

I never see before she have any gossip through out her journey as a singer

I never see before she takes any picture with any guys than her husband

she's really care and concern her own image

that's why people started to love her more

and I'm proud of her

sangat berhutung Datuk K, wanita yang lemah lembut dan tak lepas dengan sopan-santun

dialah wanita melayu terakhir

she's deserve the best

next, I waiting for Datuk K son and I'm still learning how to be like her

* thick face *

amalina start la die punye berangan2 taik ayam tu ! stop dreaming young lady '_'

conversation with granny really funny, make me laugh damn loudly

granny: kakak, nenek want to find for you husband from Gorge can ?

me: Gorgas are the people stay at jungle right ? o.O ?

granny: ya ! you match with them. *laughing*

me: why sey ? I'm fair and they darker than me '_'

granny: cause the only reason is you love to wear their bangles .

thanked to god my blocknose finally recover little bit

my high fever and coughing as well

your sweet pumpkin ,

xoxo

amalina osman

I love holiday, please

2011-03-12T21:37:00.000+08:00

Thanks to god for giving me high fever, bad coughing & noseblock (worst flu ever)

until I need to cancel my appointment with my friends.

sorry my dearest adorable, I can't meet you so I will meet you next week before the school holiday

oh my goodness !

next week my last week and it's holiday on the 19th March

this year are awesome year

I heard from mama that daddy going to Korea for his business snoopy restaurant

and maybe we going to holiday too, maybe Korea or Hong Kong

my dream come true finally !

ZOOM HONG KONG ZOOM KOREA

GOOD NIGHT & HAVE A SWEET DREAM

your beloved,

xoxoxo ~

amelyna anak pak osman

I in love with you guys

2011-03-06T23:23:00.000+08:00

I in love with them

I in love with their vocals

I in love with their songs

I in love with the way they move and dances

I in love with their pictures

I in love with their fashion and photograph

I in love how they express their feeling towards music

I in love how they created the songs

I in love how they be a popularity

I in love how they brave and talks in front of the publicity

I in love with Negro looks, their looks

it just make me melt and melts

I can go crazier and madness! omg!

hahahaha !

so guys out there if you do have Negro looks please I hope to know you as a friend

*mirror your face*

especially the Malay ones ya !

everyone are welcome to be my friends

be friendly and be nice to me, don't afraid I'm a friendly and cheerful girl

I will entertain you as my best friend

the important skill whatever we do we still will respect one and other.

your big and crazier fan,

xoxoxo ~

when I was a child, I had a big dream

2011-03-05T18:57:00.000+08:00

WHEN I FLASH BACK EVERYTHING WAS SWEET

It's remind me when I was a little girl

when I took part in competition as a model

when I became a princess with beautiful diamond dress

I dress with the different themes like Hawaii

Cat-woman and also bright grooming wedding dresses

I poses with different characters

I smile wildly and laugh when the light flash on me

I sweating the numbers of time which I can't count but

then the photographer always gave me a chocolate

I wonder how wonderful it was especially cat-walked in front of the audiences

so excited at the same time I had self confident and experience

after being a model for like 2-3 year, at the age of 5-10 years old this chubby little girl started to change her career as a singer.

she fat, people will describe her as floppy chicken wings and whenever she went people will pitch her double cheeks.

she not sang in front of her family,cousins or relatives

but she sang in front of the audiences too which she had join the competition

and unbelievable where she won the second prize after that she started to sang in front the publicity

while eating snickers, my brain go wild !

the more experience and ability of inspiration

every human want to looks younger, prettier and handsome

but they sometime don't realize that each of them will grown older too .

it come sooner/later, trust me

onces we live each of us will die too

I want to express my problems but I just can't

cause I knew how good/bad she was she still a part of my family

still a part of my blood and she the one who birth me.

maybe a part of my life too, only god knew how embarrassed I was when she react like that. I knew it's not good to talk behind her back especially your own mum right ?

but the fact was I still can't believe it she still can't face the fact that she will getting older sooner

she keep enjoying herself until she don't realize that her children's getting older.

she proud at herself and when people keep compliments about her the more ego she became.

she still enjoying herself as if like teenagers and I knew how supporting she was

although she tired/sleepy she still support and came my school, I mean during my secondary school.

my friends told me that I should proud of myself getting a mum like her

but I guess my friends don't know her well as what I knew her

ofcos the! she my mum and I should know her better

I knew her character and attitude that she can't change

how good or how bad she was she still my mum and maybe I'm wrong I shouldn't post about her at the facebook wall and I shouldn't talk about her neither .

but when she make me angry I just can't control my anger, especially when she came back home late at 2-3am in the morning while everyone sleeping.

and my dad was so quiet even I never saw him scold at my mum before.

kata orang kasih muka lama-lama naik lemak dan

tak guna kalau di tegur sebab die bukanya terima seadanya .

whatever it is, she still my mum

no use and no point talking about her it's better to keep myself .

I wish and hope one day I have a mum like my friends

a mum that can change to be better

a mum that show the good examples

a mum that can realize who she is

a mum that can accept the criticizes

a mum that not only can see others mistake but herself too

without mothers without us in this world

your sincerely,

xoxo ~

relationship is temporary

2011-02-22T18:58:00.000+08:00

In this whole, everyone wants a perfect love story

perfect relationship

perfect couple that they can be the talks on top of the whole

perfect happy ending

all they see love was amazing but sometime I asking myself

why must we have a partner in life? why must we in love and ending with hurts?

why must we marry and having our own family?

what will happen if guys not exist in this world? do girls suffer?

I realize in my past few years, I been care and concern about my partners

but do they care? why must I care neither if they not .

I want to be self center too, but I guess sometime life was just unfair .

I have this kind of feeling, it's like fear to me .

I hate when guys looking and staring at me .

when they staring at me like more than ten minutes, I feel like shaking .

my hands, my legs and even my body. my brain will stop at the moment and blank .

I will stop doing my own thing and keep playing with my phone as if like someone text-ing with me but not .

Throughout my years of living in single status, I admit it how I really fear knowing guys

different character, different behavior and even different attitude that I faced

my goodness, only god knew how long I will be single and freedom .

god knew the best for me, I shouldn't find neither let it come naturally please .

I don't want to find any guys right now cause not in the suitable moment and I guess relationship it just temporary in life

I don't want to be hurt and I guess who's want to be hurts too right?

I don't want them to hates me for no reason, just accept me for who I'am

I helped my friends/girlfriends sincere in my heart, even I knew sometime they having a huge problems with their parties.

even I'm not in the relationship but at least I have the experiences, I'm trying my best to help and please don't say that I'm not .

I knew myself the most

I knew myself the best

and I knew better than you do .

Before you love/care others please love yourself first, love as much as you can cause no one's will love you the way you love yourself .

I wish and wanted people to loves me and not hating me the way I'am .

appreciate and accept the way you are cause we are all the same, it's creation by god .

and I always remind this to others even myself that nothing in this world is perfect

we can't be perfect but we can learn to be better

sometime you look others are perfect than Asian, they not perfect neither but they learned and practice since they were child .

I always think this small matter as positive even when they criticizes me

think this as positive inspiration in your life with challenges that will come ahead

and I guess at least

we must thanked to god for gave us chances to alive,

breath the fresh air and even born in this huge retrospect

to see/explore around the world

we have just one chance to breath so treat your life meaningful .

your truly,

xoxo

love was beautiful but hurts

2011-02-20T21:44:00.000+08:00

i realize how amazing my life when i fall in love with him

i realize how hard to forget the person that you fall in love

i realize how pampered i'am when i with you

until it's hard for you to say " no"

i realize i'm a girl that always pampered even with my mum

what that i wanted she gave me but before she gave the word that appeared from her mouth was " i'm proud that you passed your exam"

she not only proud just because i passed but she proud because i'm her only child .
yes, i do keep hiding when people start to ask me how many sibling you have .

i say i'm not alone, i have brother and sister.

but when they saw why your father name not the same as them, i start the truth i'm his step child.

people always say you have a happier family

oh only god knew how it goes, i wish i have to.

sometime i wonder why granny keep fighting with mum just because misunderstanding

even if that not a case i'm sure dad with fighting too with mum.

just because of my step brother, i realize why god give him alive to breath

if he dare to done all the stupid things

if he dare to rude and disrespect others

if he dare to scold bad words to my granny and others

and he didn't appreciate things surround him .

only god knew how suffer my mum and granny was .

i can't see when people crying in front of me especially the love ones

especially my granny.

i think god created the wrong human sometime

cause i realize most of them never appreciate things

and the evil started to whisper their ears, how idiot they were.

she's old lady and i guess old ladies do have the feeling of sensitive, why must you done that ?

why can't you speak up and honest to yourself ?

you like make my granny suffer get scolded by my mum just because of you .

you just quiet and pretending nothing happen *act as if you good with idiot smile*

only god knew how ugly your heart was include your naughty brother too .

shopping with mum and granny over the weekends

" cotton on will be my favorite time, day and night"

i'm loved with it !

I want a happier life and fairy tales just a dream

2011-02-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

" I want to be the happiest girl "

I want you to know that without you, I can live a happiest life forever

without guys I think my life is just perfect

why must we in love and always getting hurt right?

It's better to live your life with your family, cousin or relatives .

you feel happy cause you have a family that concern about you

you feel happy cause you have friends that care about you

you feel happy cause you have teachers that always support you from the back

I believe without guys, I'm feel lonely

but I believe more without guys my heart won't hurts neither

single is just perfect for me, mama and granny started to realize

that I look happier until I eat a lot and guess what ?!

I getting fatter my weight keep increasing,I do eat the junk foods

chickens and meats cause my granny cook the oily foods '_'

like always .

I still don't ever care what people out there want to say about my appearances cause being happy is perfect for me.

god knew how I really felt past few months without you

but I never giving up my hopes and I still standing by myself .

past few months, I was like suffering but now I realize I'm back with a big smiling face !

maybe it's hard to forget you but I guess life need to go on right ?

as life going on, I still busy to complete my assignments especially my batmobile & character design .

so excited !

I wanted to finish up my batmobile at Maya 3D so that I can see how wonderful it is !

I watch Streetdance and Step Up 3 just now since a weekend,

don't worry Mr Neo your three pages sketch book have been completed by me :D

for your info, I influences with fashion now a days.

I want to be model please and I think I have a huge crush with Negro Guys.

Life is surrounded by fashion. vintage. retro. photogenic.

with love lydia izzati, the talents and successful lady

2011-02-01T13:43:00.000+08:00

Hello blogger and reader's

first of all, I wanted to thanks to the some people who gave my blog link to Lydia Izzati.

Thanks to them cause maybe without them, I won't realize that I should put her name instant of mine.

gaga! so forgetful.

the previous post it's not by me but by her.

secondly, I wanted to apologizes what had happened.

Sorry Lydia for not asking your permission first.

Let me tell honestly from the bottom of my heart, she my biggest fan and yes!

I watched her act at television most of the time and I never ever miss it at ones .

I even read her blogger and new updates about herself.

She really can act in the different moods and characters, the way she express it looks like real .

"dia pengang watak seolah-olah seperti diri dia sendiri dan saya kagum dengan beliau"

at least someone prove to me that not all teenagers have a bad influence

then you guys out there doing stupid things like wasting your own sweet time under the void deck or whatsoever why not you guys show your own talents.

be brave and smarter doing the right things like her

then you guys show the bad influence in citizen, that's embarrassing and shameless right?

"kata orang buat kerja berfaedah, daripada pengaruh dengan orang-orang yang tak guna"

bukan diri aje yang malu tapi keluarga sendiri yang tompang malu, menyusahkan keluarga satu hal memalukan masyarakat pun satu hal juga.

She's perfect in my eyes and she show her own talents, not only acting but singing and modeling.

She show good examples and we should follow by her, step up than hiding under the shells.

Be the way you are & Ignore what they want to say about you cause life isn't perfect

But they will respect if you live your life confidently

Although it's not perfect enough but life can be better and meaningful each day

Learn to respect,confident,brave and thinking smartly cause that is the Principe of human.

life not another cinderella story

2011-01-25T14:05:00.000+08:00

Everyone wants a perfect love story. Each soul dreamt of having a charming prince riding a white enchanting horse to fetch them to some goddamn classic castle to get married. Every person wishes that their Romeo would suddenly fall from the sky presenting them with a ravishing diamond ring that would get girls from the whole town wanting to be you. All of you want something from someone, but do nothing to show that you actually deserve it.

I used to be the girl whose bound out of love from the previous relationship I had. Like every other nights I find myself still awake, searching every angle within my brain for any possible reason for this unsettled mind. I feel that there's multi fold things to be done in fixing this world. Everyday I wonder if I make a difference, or had I touched anyone's life just yet by being sincere, without any slight deterrence over anything. Or if I am slowly anesthetize by the putrefaction the world has to offer.

First, you noticed my existence and seeked for my name. The next day you told yourself if you were to hold me in your arms, you will never set me free. I remembered your words of having me as the last girl to surrender you heart to. Having to know me as long as it felt like one two three four five six seven days, I secretly wished I was the only girl in your eyes.

You eased all my problems and wash away all my worries. Even though tears would never stop to spill vigorously, you continued your attempt to stop it from spilling. I am very sorry if I went too far at times, sucking all the precious seconds of your time listening to I whine. I was a little childish, to think you could no longer be bothered by my immature behaviors. I'm very sorry if I ever thought you never cared, when you did so much.

I come to realise we couldn't be spending the rest of our lives dwelling over something had stopped to happen. True, they're moments in life where we had wished that we hadn't made certain choices. What's done is done, and all we can do now is to learn from our mistakes instead of grieving over spilt milk. Its not like you can order the whole shit to rewind.Why don't you shove the dark things aside and hope for a better sunshine? It's not like when one thing is screwed, the rest will be. Getting hurt is part of the process. Too bad in reality, thats the way things work. Life's not another Cinderella story. Make your life meaningful, live life the way its worth living for.

Amazingly, I still count the number of days. You never fail to make me smile for every thought of you. No matter how annoying can you get at times, you'll make up to it and make me laugh out of it. The little arguments we went through were indeed hilarious when I reminiscing about it now. Well I think things do not line up according what we expect now but just to let you know I really miss you and I don't wish for this to end.

Once I thought the strong feeling that beat haphazardly against the chest, making me feel restless all night is something that shouldn't be ignored. Can I hear your voice now and those three words you used to tell me every minute?

life just awesome and everyday Tuesday lesson "cah" from Mr godly Vince had been cancelled. What's more I can say? I been spending my time with life, family, friends and school. Like I say more assignments and journey for me to success.

yours truly, xoxo > Lydia Izzati ( who seem perfect in my eyes, she my biggest fan )

i show you my habit

2011-01-20T20:03:00.000+08:00

can you hear my scream ?

can you hear my speak?

can you hear my shout?

can you hear at this moment when we far apart ?

To admit I keep thinking about you

I still fall for you but I controlling myself

to be patient cause I knew reality will be come sooner/later

I have a habit that's hard to change, when I in love with someone I will in love with him

forever and after .

I have a bad habit, it's hard for me to replace someone special in my heart

I have a worst habit, where by it's hard for me to fall in love easily and when I did it also hard for me to leave easily

baby, it just hard to change everything in a blink of an eye .

remember when we first met, you such a sweet to me .

we treasure everything surrounding us .

I miss the way you hold my hand

I miss the way you staring at me

I miss the way you called me with the sweetness word

I miss the bittersweet

but when the problem started we changed and we decided to live our life separately

definitely you can't believe it

2011-01-03T01:48:00.000+08:00

" I should be honest to you, I still fall for you even I try my best to forget everything about you"

I don't know why it's so hard to forget about you

honestly, I keep pretending myself when I with you

I show you not the real of me and whenever you asking me why, I keep saying nothing

I'm sorry what I have done

even I said that I hate you but through my heart I still fall for you

I miss the moment with you .

I wanted to be your princess the only one .

I wanted to be your soul in your life .

I wanted to be your first and the last .

merana diriku di buatnya tanpa dirimu .

( I became like a fool just because of you and your love )

dear god,

let the right path come and change me into better person

thinking positive mindset and being more confident

Baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me
Then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me
Then after that shove me, in the aftermath of the
Destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we
know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
That we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky
Together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills,
You hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count
But together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain
Our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counsellin'

he's the thorn amongst roses

2011-01-01T20:54:00.000+08:00

Dear Love,

I'm sorry for trying my best ignoring you even your messages/calls

I'm sorry for thinking negative about you this far

I'm sorry for leaving you go just like that

I'm sorry for getting away from you

I'm sorry for hurting your feeling again and again

I'm sorry for pretending myself

I'm sorry for asking you a lot of questions

I'm sorry if I make you suffer in your life

I'm sorry that I never entertain you as usual

I'm sorry for giving up with you easily

I'm sorry for giving you too much of freedom

I'm sorry for being ego to you

I'm sorry for being rude sometime

I'm sorry for not being concern & care towards you anymore

I'm sorry for being bad and acting like this

I letting you go because I wanted you to be happy by her side

I wishes you all the best and may god protecting you always

If you look inside a girl's heart, you'd see how much she really cries.

You'll find hidden secrets and lies.

But what you'll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong.

being happy doesn't mean it's perfect

2011-01-01T14:29:00.000+08:00

" When You Single, All You See Was Happy Couples "

yesterday was the awesome day for me although I went home at 8pm

although I can't see the fireworks

I still happy spending my time with Abang Kiev Lee & Kakak Ayu family

great drop the topic here .

I'm blogging not to say about what happen yesterday but to say about this guy.

ade owang2 kat sini kenal Yat Ramos tak ?!

Die adek kakak ayu dan die Ayat Ayat Cinta yang saye maksutkan

I mean he just my friend and not more than that.

tengok betul-betul tau kawan tak lebih daripade tu eh.

he not my romeo neither but he will be my hater sooner/later

lina tak suke apebile lelaki pakse2 lina balik cepat semate2 nak suruh perumpuan lain datang

lina tak suke lelaki act baik sangat depan lina tapi belakang teruk, hanye allah yang tahu

lina tak suke lelaki yang sweet talk depan lina

lina tak suke lelaki tengok lina dan berani sangat kelip mata dekat lina depan family lina

bukan tu aje tapi minta number pun ade

kalau satu kali takpe tau ni dah banyak2 kali '_'

especially mat-mat malaysia .

bukan nak hina atau cakap besar la, nenek lina cakap jangan sombong kalau dorang senyum

kat kite sebab tu lina balaskan senyum balik tapi kalau minta2 number dah melebih tu

buat bodoh sudah eh ^^.

kadang-kadang waktu kite seorang sendirian, semue kite tengok 'happy couples' kan ?!

suke lina tengoknye tapi ade yang melebih terlalu over sangat depan masyarakat.

kang ! dah kene sound daripade lina ! hahaha!

tapi betul pe, ade yang 'show off ' cium sane cium sini hug sane hug sini

tak rimas ke ? lina tengok macam rimas kalau tunang suami istri tak pe la.

sorry kalau cakap terlepas sebab lina memang suke terus terang daripade cakap belakang kan tak baik ? dosa namenye tu. hehehe! :D

mak lina sampai cakap ' Wah ! ' mama tengok anak mama seorang ni dah banyak berubah, makin banyak pulak . Belajar daripade kesilapan nampaknye.

mestilah kene belajar daripade kesilapan kalau nak buat orang sayang dan suke diri kite.

" you must try to love someone that love you and forget the one's you love "

what's the point loving them if they never love you right ?

let them go and being happy with the one's they love

cause you may not know maybe they will be in your future or someone better than them

" you can't forget/replace them with someone but you can live your life happily"

jalani hidup anda sedia kala, mungkin mereka akan bahagia melihat mu bahagia

hidup harus diteruskan

waiting for you was happier for me .

2010-12-30T19:42:00.000+08:00

Little princess & prince smiling

BOO !

The Evil's

all my sketches from Tangled

how my daddy uncle ee?

I improve alot or not?!

ALOHA MY BLOGGER READER'S !

like finally I update my blogger ^^.

holiday been so bored, seriously I hate holiday cause I can't enjoy my life to the fullest.

tomorrow is the last day of 2010

mama, can I going out to Singapore tomorrow please?

at least give me a chance to be with my friends, omg! I started to miss them a lot.

I will promise you mama, I will be back before 11pm :)

I never broke any promise before even if you still give me the house rules.

ya it's suck ! when you don't have any freedom in your life

but actually sometime I felt wonder because you get to know your family more well.

"kate orang rapatkan siraturahim" eh! betul tak melayu saye ni?!

sekali cakap asal boleh hembus aje kan ! :D

sejak tinggal johor bahru ni kan , saye banyak cakap merepek la!

hahhaha! even kakak ayu pun ketawe kan saye ! sedih sedih .

dah la amalina tak paya nak dramatic pleasee !

I should tell you this, you know being single is the happier life I never had.

like no one's controlling your life and your phone will always away from you.

no one's will contacting or messaging you cause no service .

my friends will contact me through my fb,msn and oovoo .

of cos, you will felt lonely without them by your side but whatever it is family always come first right?

this whole month holiday, I been practice my drawing skill a lot.

yes! it's bored and tired when you always do the same thing the whole day.

TV will be the entertainment for you , like always '_'

but I started to watch channel TV3 cause I found my favorite show .

'tiramisu' the love story

I learnt to be in love and how you treasure things surrounding you

love the people that love you

don't ever hit/hurt yourself when the people doesn't love you

let them go cause you may not know maybe they will be in your future/ maybe someone that much better than them

only god knew, he will show you the right path :D

chey chey chey! die dah pandai la sey!

mama selalu pesan kat lina, kalau kita sayangi dia tak semestinya kita harus memiliki dirinya. Kita harus merelakan dia pergi asalkan dia bahagia disamping orang yang dia sayang.

Melihat orang yang kita sayang bahagia, kita pun turut merasa bahagia :D

memang lina insan yang lemah, tak dinafikan lina tetap menunggu dia walaupun berapa tahun pun harus menunggu . Mungkin menunggu mu adalah kebahagiaan untuk diri ku .

school holidays .

2010-12-09T18:13:00.000+08:00

webbing with my sister,

mama told me the face good alike but attitude totally different

" kakak boleh dengar kate tapi sabrina sangat susah "

nak tegur pun susah ape entah lagi marah kalau die buat salah

budak zaman sekarang banyak cerewet !

blogger blogger and blogger :)

Finally, it's holiday for a month and I can rest happily ever after.

I will miss my senior soon especially kakak ayu & abang kiev lee.

look at the pictures, abang I found your picture inside my laptop even songs

I think kakak ayu decided to put inside because she knew I will miss abang alot.

I felt like loner craps now a days.

kakak ayu and abang kiev graduated, no more laughter

no more jokes

no more care and concern

no one's will teach me adobe flash like how kakak ayu did

no one's will asking and buying for me foods like how kakak ayu did

no one's will run towards me and pinch my cheeks tightly like how abang kiev did

no one's will hug and advise me anymore

the last day I laugh was the last day they by my side

next year, I will be more independent and stressful

I thought digital animation was easy that I can success easily, but I'm in the wrong situation

to be a successful animator you need to practice your skill of drawing alot

you need to be patient while doing it especially in the software

like 2D and 3D, we need to use toom boom and maya

I hate theory but I love practical

for me practical like a piece of cake but theory like stone that hard to be remember

what's more can I say?

life was awesome during the past but now not wonderful enough

sometime I feel regret knowing them because I knew they will leave me soon or later

but I don't think they will forget me easily, like I say people getting change

people now a days giving up easies cause they lack of confident

they started to think "never mind if I can't success, but at least I have the job and money"

it take years to be success, I told my mum I won't marry if I never success

then she told me, it seem I will get granddaughter and son from your sister and brother .

don't put high hope on me, I just can try my best in my life.

I miss my Pantat Beautiful Ain

I miss my G.Dragon Aishah

I miss my Pendek Strong Ariel

I miss my Pendiam Nerd Afiqah

I miss my Winnie the Pooh

I miss my Rainbow Purple Violet

I miss my Sweet Couple Kakak Ayu & Abang Kiev Lee

I will miss my Ayat-Ayat Cinta Romeo Ramos :(

Baby Romeo,bring me to your fantasy so I can live by your side always .

look into your eyes and let the kiss fly

Your Baby Juliet

Juliet, will miss her Romeo

2010-11-28T16:34:00.000+08:00

Desir pasir di padang tandus
Segersang pemikiran hati
Terkisah ku di antara cinta yang rumit

Bila keyakinanku datang
Kasih bukan sekadar cinta
Pengorbanan cinta yang agung
Ku pertaruhkan

Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
Cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah
Ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
Cintaku padamu
Bila bahagia mulai menyentuh
Seakan ku bisa hidup lebih lama
Namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta
Ketika ku bersujud

Bila keyakinanku datang
Kasih bukan sekedar cinta
Pengorbanan cinta yang agung
Ku pertaruhkan

Ketika ku bersujud

dedicate this song to someone special

the song so mean to me, I tears when I heard this song .

maybe true story.

2010-11-05T17:35:00.000+08:00

“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband…. ”

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

life awesome doesn't mean I forget about you

2010-11-05T15:12:00.000+08:00

Emma Watson

I wanted to be like her, can?

I wanted to be a girlfriend of George Craig, where I can replace her

I wanted to be a model and I have a big dream since I was small

School Life Assignments was awesome

I started to get use in Toon Boom but still learning the Adobe Flash

I still prefer Adobe Photoshop because it easier than the rest

next year we will learn Maya, life getting difficult and tougher

what's more can I say?

I'm happy with my life now a days with people that I love

with kakak ayu and abang kiev lee, they took so much concern in my life

kakak ayu so caring until she bought me a packet of drink and chocolate cookies just to make sure I eat

Life getting awesome because having them in the same school

oh! not to forget Ayat too, kakak ayu brother

I'm happy spend my time with them

but the only thing I should suffer was facing with abang kiev and ayat

because they love to pinch my cheeks, until red and blue black.

how irritating they were ? >_<

Yat Ramos, saya tuka name awak Ayat Ayat Cinta . Boleh?

" If it a must then I show you how important you in my life, you left me alone but still no one's can ever replace you in my heart"

poem of love and creation

2010-10-27T20:09:00.000+08:00

" It's better to show me the real of you than hurt my feeling"

show me you are truthful

show me you are honest

show me you are sincere

show me how you felt when I left you alone

show me how much do you really love me

show me that no one can replace me in your heart

show me that you really concern and care about me

show me that you will not hurt me anymore

tell me your accusation and judgement

because it is enough to break my heart

enough of the hurting and sufferings that you gave me

it's enough for me to handle all this problems by myself

all I wanted from you is to be by my side always

I accepted who you are because you were created by god

every human is imperfect but they learn to improve

tell me how you felt when you fell?

when you fell did anyone support you from the back?

did you manage to get up by yourself without me in your life?

I know you must at least fall back sometimes

because without falling you won't know how to get up by yourself

but the main point here was what you felt when you hurt me?

Were you happy without me in your life? without me supporting you from the back?

I showed you who I am because I am created by god

I'm imperfect to anyone but I try my best to learn my mistakes and be the perfection

you knew how much I loved you

you knew how much I missed you

you also knew how much I needed you

but leaving me without a word,do you honestly think that the problems would be solved?

did you think I can forget you easily?

you are in the wrong decision,

because it's hard for me to forget especially the words that you left unsaid,

" the more you forget about me, the more i remember about you"

"the more you ignored me, the more i in love with you"

"the more you left me, the more you become closer to my heart"

I'm not stop falling for you, Rafiq

2010-10-24T21:24:00.000+08:00

hello peoples !

here I blog again with the new topic

maybe it's true I should leave him alone, just let him go and be himself

seriously, I really need a time to forget everything about him, at least a year or a month.

but I think it takes quite long maybe a year or forever in my life.

With all this pain that hurts and kill me, I felt beyond than stress

like wanted to take knife and slice my heart into the pieces

Those bullshit happened to me, I started to regret knowing guys in my life

but I never felt regret knowing him because he is someone special that cared, loved and entertain me.

I even started to think maybe all the guys in this world is the same, unless if you guys prove and own up.

Then, I should say I admit that I'm in wrong decision and situation.

why should I think about him if he doesn't think about me?

why should I felt stressful if he never feel anything?

why should I ruining my life if he feel happy without me?

Those question still in my mind, I keep thinking after he left me.

mungkin ini adalah balasan yang harus ku terima atau takdir

allah berikan ku pentunjuk segala-galanya, tunjukkan aku jalan yang lurus.

jikalau dia adalah jodoh aku, kau akan berikan ku cabaran, dugaan dan kebahagiaan bersama dirinya

kau akan berikan aku terbaik sepanjang berjalan aku di bumi ini

berikan aku kekuatan dan kesabaran untuk tempuh hidup ini

amin.

God, thank you so much for knowing him in my life.

although I met and fall him at onces, I still appreciate him in my life

Make me fall for him again and again